I have been so drowsy today. I really wore myself down by staying up so long the past couple days. It felt so good to sleep in today. I didn't want to leave my bed. My sweet peaceful slumber. I didn't either until almost 2 pm and it was pure bliss.

Most people say you waste 1/3 of your life sleeping. To me it is not a waste. It is an essential part of living and keeps you connected with the other side. I couldn't live without my dreams. They are very important to me. I think they all carry meaning that I can learn from. There are many secrets locked away in the depths of the subconscious just waiting to be unearthed.

The subconscious can also be a graveyard for traumatic events and dark thoughts. You can try and bury as much as you want there, but its like burying a body in the bayous of New Orleans. It will eventually rise to the surface stinking with decay. The cause of death still very apparent and hitting the mind with a shockwave, crippling in its power.. filling the body with toxic anxiety like the radiation of an atom bomb.

The secret is to unearth these things and bring them into the open and deal with them before they become hazardous waste to the soul. A toxic spill is much better than a meltdown. What happens when the body is invaded with radiation? The skin rots and the body forms malignancies. Think of mental trauma in this way and it becomes quite unnerving.

Truth will purify the soul and wash away the toxins... but it takes time. Often it begins with tears.. This is a form of purification.. The tears will wash away the pain.. the suffering... the anger.. They are there to heal.. It’s hard to let them go.. Tears are precious. Often they are held back until they burst out like a river overflowing a dam.

Eventually the river recedes.. At first there is flooding and everything has died, but before long new life springs forth from the mud. Eventually it becomes as beautiful as before or maybe even something completely new and wonderful. Of course it takes time. The mud is like a newly formed scar. It takes time to fade and to become beautiful again. It is up to each of us to decide if it will remain a murky swamp or become a beautiful meadow or forest that provides shelter and attracts life.

The choice is our own, even if it doesn't seem like it is. Take back the power of free will. Freewill is the gift of God. Don't give the gift away or take it for granted.

The Feisty Leo